Why I Quit Making Content for 2 Weeks

Hi there guys,

A quick disclaimer first of all. Reading this post back it says everything I wanted to say but I want to preface it with a few things. Firstly, I speak about “fixation” which is not the same as “addiction”. Addiction is something entirely different and I don’t identify with the term personally at all. I hope you enjoy.

So today I am writing about my decision to quit making content for two weeks. This is not going to be a negative, sad blog post so don’t worry (you can put the tissues away) it’s a little story about self-love and self-improvement.

Being a content creator online is so much fun. I love my audience and I love how I get to interact with people from all walks of life who enjoy looking at my photos, watching my videos, and reading my posts. However, I needed to draw a line in the sand. I was reading articles about Mental Health Awareness Week which pushed me down a rabbit hole of article all about the effect of social media. It made me realise and put a few things into perspective. Having an audience is something that has defined my teenage years. It has shaped me as a person and made me the individual I am today. I believe in fighting for justice and standing up for power imbalances. The internet has changed the way I think about life and how I treat people. I believe it had made me kinder and more hardworking. And, maybe most importantly, I has taught me what I am worth.

However, since I turned 20 I have realised that a sign of growing up is the maturing of your thought processes. I realised that I had a bit of a social media fixation. Not an fixation to the internet but an fixation to a feeling. For me, the poster child of my feelings was my constant seeking of approval. I would create content for Instagram and then sit for hours when it was uploaded checking every like, every follow, every interaction. The notifications gave me a buzz and a mini high. But if the post didn’t do so well I found myself feeling hollow. I think I speak for a lot of people when I say this. My head would constantly be full of thoughts like:

“If I take a picture here, how many likes would it get” “Are these hashtags okay?” “If I post at this time then only this many people will see it” “Wait, that post only got this many likes what can I do better?”

For a long while I mistook this feeling for me being a business person trying to better my chances of earning and how marketable I am. I saw it as a quirky interest in statistics and digital marketing. I compared myself to other influencers doing the same sort of content as me and thinking “why did I not get that brand deal?” This realisation shook me to the core. I was a like-chaser. But I realised that I was misinterpreting my own thoughts.

So, I went cold turkey.

I uploaded Instagram stories and tweets but I didn’t take any photos, I didn’t record any videos and I didn’t actively think about content. And honestly, I feel so refreshed.

Having a break from social media, even for that long put a lot of things into perspective for me. Am I really living my life? Or am I trying to curate a story that will look fun to onlookers? During my break I realised that if that element of my life was taken away from me, life was a bit bland. So, during the break, I have planed multiple nights out with friends. I have put myself out there and actively tried to make friends in real life. Instead of following them on Instagram I spoke to them. I consolidated friendships that were based on smiles and seeing them in lectures. It feels amazing. I encourage you to take a break from posting and look at how you can enrich your life if the internet was turned off or you were only allowed limited use.

I realised that I had lots of friends but those links were only tenuous. Now, I am working towards making those links with people stronger and more resilient. I feel like I am spinning a web of “addiction” here which is not the case. I was not completely living my whole life online but I still didn’t have a balance that was healthy enough for me.

Anyway, I think that’s all I have to say. If you have any questions please don’t hesitate to get in touch.

Have an amazing, happy, healthy day.

Best wishes,

Kenny 🙂

One thought on “Why I Quit Making Content for 2 Weeks

  1. Loveee this post Kenny! I absolutely agree that sometimes a break is really needed, especially to kickstart your creativity again or make you realise the importance of being present. I love making content too, but like you say, it can all become a bit much if you take it too seriously. I absolutely love though that blogging and instagram has brought some fab friends into my life and given me the chance to meet new people (oh hey, dat you!). Fab post, can’t wait to read more!
    Hannah (hannahshappyhour.com) xxxxxx

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